Asad
had been signalling since many days that he likes me. It is incredibly
conspicuous. He is happy when he is with me. He can be punished for not
submitting his assignment on time, but if he glimpses me, he’ll still give me that
melting smile. All his family members know about me, that's how much he talks
about me to them. So I'm hoping that it is a mutual crush, err.. L.O.V.E. He
has an enticing voice for me.. softer, humbler. We are always around and with
each other.
These
days I look for opportunities to be close to him, and he too doesn't mind. It
has been four years to your friendship, actually 'something' more than just
friendship. We are a small gang. But despite that, there was never any wrong
intention or any wrong touch from him ever. That makes him, my man.
Day
after tomorrow is Valentine's day! What better day than the national day of
amour? I know its unconventional for a girl to pop the question, but who
cares? Everything is fair in love and
war. And this is love. Yes, L.O.V.E, it is! I have postponed telling him this
fact since many months. But now I think, I'm ready for the leap and very sure
myself. I'm ready to make the commitment and now it's almost unsaid. Doesn't
matter who takes the call!
I
have decided to catch his attention, not just for the V-Day, but for life. He
is my person. I'm thrilled about my plans.
Asad
never judges me, but I want to be good around him. I want to look my best! I
want to feel pretty around him. Asad says, 'Asmara, you look lovely in white!' I
don't want to deck up like a doll plastering my face with makeup. A bit of
mascara and gloss. That's it. Asad doesn't like dolled up girls. He thinks they
are fake with the overtly done makeup.
As
a girl, I wanted to be the proposee. To experience that big moment with
butterflies in my tummy. But now, it's hard to wait. I haven't hurried in
proposing to Asad, I have known him well for years. So I am comfortable around
him. He loves my smile, so that will be my asset. He knows the 'real' me.
I
have decided to be direct with him, he knows when I beat around the bush and
I'll be caught! I want to keep it simple, yet memorable.
Some
things never change, he will meet me on 14th February with his shirt tucked
halfway in his jeans and with that hairdo to die for! He is that way, daily.
Like a Greek God.
The
way to a man's heart is through his stomach. So, I have decided to make some
homemade cupcakes for Asad, he loves them!
We
are meeting for a movie on the 14th. Plan has been fixed. Inox theatre, Nariman
point. I have decided to be bolder. This method of proposing is tried and tested.
But I'm a bit filmy, so I have decided to go by this method. I have prepared a
short movie to be screened and I will pop the question during the interval. In
the video, his favourite romantic song - 'Tum Mile' will be dedicated to him - with
all our pictures, moments and memories. Like a mini flashback of four years. This
will get him down the memory lane, for sure! I have ended it with a sweet
proposal, 'Friendship transformed to crush and slowly into L.O.V.E. Will you
be my Valentine, forever?' This will charm him and he will give me 'that'
smile. It will be memorable, I hope not embarrassing though.
*After
the movie ends*
I
have printed on a plain white T shirt, 'Asad, I like you, like I love you.' I'll
gift him and wait for his reaction.
I
have also written a letter to him, a LOVE LETTER with the sender's name - GOD,
with a message inside, "God wants us to be together... till
eternity!"
The
letter reads ~
"I
intend to be your partner for life, Asad. I want to marry you, take all the major
decisions of my life with you. There's a cultural barrier in our society that a
woman cannot bring up the question and let a man know that she loves him. But I
know I'm not wrong and so there is no shame in letting you know that I L.O.V.E
you. I didn't want to be a stereotypic girl waiting for a man to propose her.
Proposing is scary. Ask me that. It took me months to decide and tell you.
Moreover, your decision over it scares me a bit. What if a no? Will I be able
to take it? I don't know, frankly. But if you ask me, can I handle you for
life? My answer would be, 'Happily, yes!'
Everything
I've ever wanted is right before me. In you. Just a mention of you can get the
loveliest smile on my face! You're so easy to connect. We have such a great
camaraderie. You and I understand each
other, even if things are unsaid. You're never jealous of my achievements, in fact you push
me to do even better. I don't need to think twice before calling you. I
admire you. You're my protector when I'm in trouble. Without you, all I am is
just a black and white rainbow.
Adrenaline
is taking its toll now! I have been planning this for few days now, it wasn't
easy, but it was totally worth it. I'm highly nervous and my communication skills
are now going for a toss.
I
would end this by saying, I really love you. I sincerely do. I will love you
until the universe will no longer let me. When I look at you I feel, 'I really
love this man.' I love him with all his flaws, all his highs, all his lows.' I
see the colour of my future in your eyes. Will you lend me your surname for the
rest of your life?? Honestly, I don't not want this to be another miserable
one-sided love. I want to earn your approval. But nonetheless, I'll value our
decision. Whatever it be."
Yours,
Asmara.
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A beautiful love letter, Ayesha. A love story with a difference. Who says a woman can't propose? You hooked me from start to finish:)
ReplyDeleteOh! I'm delighted to know that, Vishal :D
DeleteThank you :)
Nicely framed
ReplyDeleteThank you, Alaina :)
DeleteI loved it. I have a thing for letters and this one is so soulful.
ReplyDeleteDelighted to have pleased you, Saru :)
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