Recently, in discussions with my friends,
after hearing stories around, I feel, we are becoming too casual with our
relationships these days. I think this trend is mainly because, people are
easily replaceable these days. They are less tolerant towards each other. Not
many people bother to save a relationship, as they have options ready too soon.
With breakups and divorce rates rising high, I wonder where are we heading to.
All this got me inspired to write a narrative poetry - a poem that tells a
tale, without any rhyme.
At times I do find men less compassionate,
cold and shallow. I do not categorize all under the same roof, but why men?
Can't you manage to be a bit softer and less harsh? Women love a bit
differently, I believe, a bit selflessly. And absolutely no one, except the man
himself, can mess her love for him.
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She
wonders, why people leave mysteriously,
Without
questions, answers or clarifications,
One
day, they are no longer there,
Just a
void.
Time
suspends,
Wounds
stay un-mended,
No
ending, no goodbye,
You are
left to wonder, why?
Why
isn't life always fair?
Waking up
with a heavy head every morning , is a routine now,
"Will
this depression and grief ever end?" she thinks.
"Has
he ever imagined the pain he left me in?
How
could he ever do this to me?"
Her
head tells her,
"No,
mysterious lovers don't show concern. They just
leave."
He
knows me enough -
To
imagine a girl sitting on her bedroom floor,
Dry-heaving,
her body convulsing at failed attempts to silence her sobs,
Countless
silent breakdowns so that no one can hear,
Every
day is a fight with her own self,
To know
the unsaid things,
To find
the mystery behind it all.
"But he doesn't know me well yet," now it feels.
Silence
kills,
"Why
is he a man of few words?
I
talk so much, why doesn't he too?
I expected him to be naked with his words when with me,
He carries so much within, no uttering anything,
Had
he fought with me, it would have been way better,
Because
communication bridges distance.
Why
are people so shallow and cold?
Why
are relationships an ordeal sometimes?
Why
isn't loyalty and love paid back with loyalty and love?"
Sometimes
she wants him to be punished,
For
giving up on her and for his arrogant behavior,
And
sometimes she wants to just go, find him, hug him and cry together for hours,
And
protect him from everything harsh.
At
last, she questioned herself lifelessly,
"Do
you love him?"
"Yes", that
inner voice claimed.
"Maybe,
he deserves someone better than you.
You
are not good enough for him. God knows the best. Let him go.
The
harder you will try to hold on, the more he will slip away."
Momentarily
she often finds peace with the reply.
She
loved him so much to always want his good, respect his decisions,
Even if
that wronged her own self.
He is a
good person,
I am
sure while he is burning, he is giving light to others,
just like a candle does.
"Anger
carries a person in your mind forever,
Love
carries a person in your prayers forever," her
mother taught.
"Our
love, care and prayers are always with the ones we choose to love only from a
distance,
You
cannot hold on to someone who doesn't want to stay.
Some
people make goodbye difficult, but sometimes,
You
come together only to be separated."
She
drowned herself into these facts each day,
Trying
to find solace.
